Fantasy AUs

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[8footswordlady]

I know how these soldiers will fight better than anyone. I'm the best one to fight if we have to.

[fluidgender]

Even so. I'd prefer you don't have to.

[8footswordlady]

You don't have to worry about me, sir, I'll be okay.

[fluidgender]

I don't have to, but I'm going to.

[8footswordlady]

I think you should focus on the queen... She got hurt trying to protect me...

[fluidgender]

I can multi-task. I'm panicking about Catra back home in here too.

[8footswordlady]

Is she okay?! I--the queen said she sent her home, but I didn't know what happened--I didn't want to ask when things were so hectic, but--

Is she all right? They didn't... do anything weird to her, right?

[fluidgender]

...things have been... complicated in the kingdom. But she's safe right now. The fae haven't hurt her.

[8footswordlady]

... She's probably pretty mad at me.

[fluidgender]

Probably. But Kaori gets mad at everyone. Especially the people that make her worry.

[8footswordlady]

I just hope she can forgive me…

I hope you all can.

[fluidgender]

Do me a favor?

You should start by trying to forgive yourself.

[8footswordlady]

… I don’t think I have the right, yet.

[fluidgender]

You've got the order wrong. You have to forgive yourself in order to be forgiven. Because otherwise... you'll never believe that anyone's forgiven you.

[8footswordlady]

I'm not sure anyone should. This is the third time I've nearly killed the queen. [There was the stabbing, there was this--and Adora is holding the fact giving birth nearly killed Fuu in a weirdly close place.

She's been nothing but a disaster for these people. It's been in her since the moment she was born. And she wants to do everything she can to earn her place here.]

[fluidgender]

Then why do you fight then? If forgiveness is not something you can attain. [Very non-judgmental in tone.]

[8footswordlady]

Fight?

It's the only thing I can do. I can't just do... nothing.

[fluidgender]

...that's a familiar feeling.

But in my experience, fighting off that feeling with fighting just tends to hurt worse.

[8footswordlady]

I’d rather fight right now than have you and the queen in more danger.

[fluidgender]

Which brings us back to forgiveness. You can't be forgiven until you forgive yourself.

And you can't save others until you accept that you're worth saving.

[8footswordlady]

I mean, I'm pretty good at saving people when I try. I saved Catra that one time.

[fluidgender]

All I'm saying is that, sometimes, you need to be selfish when saving people. Otherwise, you're hurting yourself and them too.

[8footswordlady]

I am being selfish though. I want to make sure you guys get home safe... it's already what I want.

[fluidgender]

Then you could stand to be more selfish.

Believe it or not, we'd all be miserable without you. If you throw yourself into danger and get hurt, we all get hurt. That's why you need to protect yourself.

[8footswordlady]

… you seemed pretty happy before me.